Heart Wrenching

How do i describe my feelings right now?

My heart sank to the a bottomless pit upon receiving your msg.

Somehow wish that a hero can save me from all these. I do not know how to handle it. I am lost. I am not good at it. In fact, I wasn't even sure of myself.

I miss the times where I don't have much to do, except some community service work occasionally. They are all now a past. For now people are having high expectations of me. What should i do? I am afraid I am not up to it.

Can't we last till then? I am so sorry that for all this time you had been waiting for me. Really can't expect anything else more than you already. You had been the most wonderful girlfriend. I believe that if it is someone else, we would have broke up long ago.

I want to cherish this relationship. It is not easy for us to go such a long way. Letting go is not easy. If only praying and wishing helps . . . solve our problems.

I know that I am no longer the "me". Sigh. . . .

How do I face you during camp? I really wish that things do turn out right by then. If not, it will be a difficult and unbearable 7 days 6 nights for me.

May all couples on Earth be blessed.